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[16 Sep 2006|02:53am] |
I have a new livejournal. ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) npon
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[17 Jan 2006|09:49am] |
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Aside from the reoccuring headaches that I have had this weekend - everything was awesome. It had beena while since I had partyied with everyone and I had a lot of fun.
Things do seem a little weird. For some reason I feel tension between people. I don't know if it's just me being over-analytical.. but things just seem different. I don't feel like I know any of my friends on a personal level anymore. Does anyone feel this way, or is it just me?
Days go by really fast but weeks go by really slow. I feel kind of restless. I always feel bored, there really isn't anything to do about it either.
I wanted to write a long, elaborate post for you guys to read but, I'm afraid this is the best that I can do to sum up my feelings.
Ehh..
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[04 Jan 2006|09:58am] |
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conflict - tough shit mickey |
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Tell me the fondest (or a couple of the fondest) memories you have had with me.
I'll comment back telling you mine!
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[08 Dec 2005|04:20pm] |
I've never felt so sick in my life.
I'm sorry Caysie that I didn't come over. I did not have a ride and it was raining. I love you and I need to talk to you as soon as possible if you can call me when you see this.
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| Personality Crisis? |
[05 Dec 2005|10:40am] |
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For some really weird reason, I feel uncertain with my life. I feel like all I do is consume and produce nothing. I have been realizing also - that I am a very bad procrastinator. My life consists a lot of the same things day by day, and I hate it but I can't seem to get of of the old routine. My emotions and feelings towards things have been changing - I feel pissed of yet restless now as opposed to being sad and depressed. A few entries back I wrote about how crazy I thought it was that human emotion can fluxiate so rapidly. All of the good is in no comparison close to the negative but, the good sticks out so much more. I want to make my life filled with positive emotion and little frustration. I can't tell if it is me overreacting that times are changing or if things really are getting bad.
I don't know, none of this probably makes since. I just felt compelled to try to project what I have been thinking about a lot lately. If I seem distant, it's nothing personal. It's just what I'm going through.
On a better note, I'm almost halfway done with 1984 ( I haven't been reading as much as I want but, hey it's better than nothing!)
I'm about to go to Woodland's with my mom.
7 Months on Thursday.
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[01 Dec 2005|11:30am] |
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I want a pen pal/ pals.
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| I hand washed my hoodie today. |
[29 Nov 2005|12:34pm] |
That shit was filthy. There was black specs on the bottom of my sink when I went to drain it out. I guess thats what you get for not cleaning sweaters for 5 months.
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[25 Nov 2005|01:08pm] |
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This is the A.L.F. |
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The Central Florida Hardcore forum/message board has got to be the funniest fucking thing that I have read in a long time.
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[22 Nov 2005|12:03am] |
I DO NOT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON THIS WEDNESDAY.
I GUESS THE COOKING IS AT SAM'S HOUSE.
My mom is still iffy about cooking here on Saturday since her and my Dad will be home so as soon as I know about that I'll let you guys know.
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[21 Nov 2005|11:49am] |
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Nile - Sss Haa set yoth. |
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So, I haven't updated this thing in a pretty long time. Not too much is happening. A lot of resting, listening to Nile and hanging out.
ATTENTION TO FNB COOKING ATTENDEES: PATTI WILL BE HOME ON WEDNESDAY. That means all of the following.. No cursing, no drug references, no drugs, no loud punk music, no dick jokes, no bad talking God or Bush and anything fun that we normally do.
Sorry guys, I was pretty disappointed when I found this out too. =(
I have been reading a lot lately and I just finished God and the State by Bakunin ( if anyone wants to borrow it, let me know) and now today I started 1984. My goal is to read atleast one book a month. Any suggestions?
I'm getting back into making stencils and it fucking rules. I want to learn how to make layered stencils -I know LIZ knows how... so she should help me.
Anyway, I don't know what else to write.. I fuckin' fuck at this shit.
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| Relax, it's only paranoia! |
[08 Nov 2005|12:32am] |
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"Feel a little numb? Feel a little tired?
Your brain's asleep and your body's retired
You've learned to fit in. OBEY!
You're just a shadow of what you used to be."
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[02 Oct 2005|10:19am] |
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
4. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
5. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
6. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
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| The Dive pt 1. |
[24 Sep 2005|12:11am] |
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So, I was "tagged" by Caysie and that means I have to post 20 things about myself.
1. Sometimes, I think that I'm crazy.
2. I'm pretty sure that I have OCD with dental hygiene and things being organized. I clean my room everyday.
3. Lately, I've been listening to some pretty different music.
4. I'm very indescicive.
5. I don't like when people know how I am feeling.
6. I'm trying to start not getting worked up over dumb shit.
7. I like meeting new people, even though I'm really shy.
8. I don't forget things easily at all.
9. I contradict myself.
10. I like to just lay in my bed, listening to music.
11. I love to write but, I haven't done it in about 3 months.
12. I go through phases and spurs of creative streaks.
13. I can get jealous.
14. I think hands are the most fascinating part of the human body.
15. If I were to be reincarnated, I would be a bird or cloud.
16. I would like to start keeping a journal.
17. I have a true fear of my house being broken into.
18. I hate living with my parents.
19. I only go to school for one period.
20. I like to party.
I tag no one.
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| Everybody, please look. |
[25 Aug 2005|01:49pm] |
I just found the funniest thing ever. I was looking through extreamly old bookmarks and came across a picture of myself in 8th grade.
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[23 Aug 2005|11:42pm] |
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I'm tired of sitting at home.
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| Fuck you, I will not surrender!! I will not submit !!!! |
[20 Aug 2005|10:23am] |
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Human emotion and capability to sway from feeling to feeling so suddenly really amazes me sometimes.
I hope Tampa plans don't fall through because, I really want to go see Liz and Tamara. And plus, I need a little break from this place. I'm afraid if I don't, I'll freak out. Even if its only for a day and a half.
My room is a mess and it smells like old sweat and bad Amber inscents. The trash can is overflowing and there are bits of tissue everywhere. My cat peed on a pair of pants and random other articles of clothing are spread out everywhere.
I've got to go now, watch my 9 year old cousin prance around in make up, cheerleading uniform and cheer on a boys football team. On so many levels this is fucked up.
I know I shouldn't be upset and that I shouldn't push or expect others to agree with my beliefs but, fuck. Sometimes it just overwhelms me that so many people are apathetic. So many people know and feel that things are unjust, but just accept the fact that it's that way instead of changing( or attempting to atleast) them.
Ugh..
Oh yeah, Fuck Nike. And mainstream rap, rock, and pop music.
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